Oh Where In The World Is Sugar????

Hello readers,

Yes, it is I, brown sugar, still alive and well. Sorry I haven't updated my blog in over 6 weeks (yikes!). I didn't realize it until Ganesh commented on my previous post. Part of it is interviewing for new jobs (gonna hear if I got my dream job or not Monday morning-send some good luck vibes to me), another part is trying to meet new people in the wake of people moving on with their lives away from CA.

Also, to be honest, I have been toying with the idea of shutting down the blog. The "Happy One Year" essays were a way to begin the healing process that I had been avoiding, and now that it is complete (the essays, the healing is starting to begin), I'm not too sure where to go with the blog. As you may remember, I was supposed to meet up with BP in NYC. It happened on a windy afternoon by the Staten Island Ferry during his cigarette break, and basically, it just made me sad to see a medicated BP who wasn't as vibrant as the man I once cared for all those years ago. I guess me playing with this idea of shutting the blog is a way to close that chapter in my life. But then again, I adore the community we have here and have had the honor of meeting some of you IRL and calling you genuine friends. Without this blog, I don't think I would have met them.

Sure, I still have some random encounters with folks (like the guy who proposed to me 20 minutes after meeting me and another proposal from a guy who thought I was Yemenese-don't ask me why these proposals are coming, I'm just a quirky brown girl with a weird fashion sense and a strange obession with Bollywood. But, hey, at least my mom is thrilled), but I don't know if I have any other stories to share. Guess my life is pretty boring apart from that.

No, this is not a declaration of a blog shut-down, but I just wanted to share where I am at. Who knows, I may start posting more next week (especially if I get the new job). Just wanted to say that I am here and still working on things and who knows, I may be back in full force before you know it (or not). Until then, I look forward to reading (and commenting) on your wonderful blogs and appreciating the community we have.

-b :-)